So, the 3 big pillar of why I do this post are
\- he get mad because he has to repeat himself
\- he get "mad" because I dont know something
\- he get mad because lose (or die in-game)
so, we would play a game, then I would ask something like "wait where are the \_\_\_", then he would proceed to say something like "oh its there" but "there" would not tell me where it is, so I make the MISTAKE to ask, "where there" making him mad and telling me im stupid because I dont know here there is
for the second case, it would be something around the same as the first, I would ask where something is and he would say "are you kidding me, dumbass" because I wouldn’t have looked very specifically in the corner of my screen to see a button
and the third case is a bit more complex, we are playing a game, then I kill him with some stupid overpowered character, then he would get mad because he died, the second after, he kill ME with the same overpowered moveset over and over, other situations would be when I kill him and im at 1 hp and I would start saying things to rage bait, because I know hes better than me at the game and its just satire to say im better than him, but he would proceed to literally say personal attack against me?
like
"I didnt know you were bad at the game AND obese"
like, its for no reason at all! im saying stuff just to mess around and he would directly use rhe stuff he know I hate about myself, and if I say that’s hes mean he just say that I DO THE SAME when literally everything i do with him almost only revolt about not making him mad, even when I would say some meanish stuff I would laught about it to signal its not mean or not real
so, for the help I need, I dont know what to do, he’s my only friend i have that I can play game with, I really feel like I give too much for what he give in the friendship, I started being afraid to even ask question or explanation when playing with him, I dont know why he would be so mean to me, I dont ask question to make him mad? then why would he think I do.
I dont wanna drop him because I would just end up alone on my weekend, I dont know why I cant force myself to say that its making me sad, do I even do anything to be an asshole
(sorry if the post is slightly hard to read, im not 100% fluent in english)
NTA, that guy is not your friend
Came here to say exactly this
NTA; he is, big time.
He’s not a friend. He’s full of hate toward himself, you, and the world, but you are nearby, so he takes it out on you. Nothing you say will change him. In fact, he gets joy out of wielding the power of insulting you, so it would make him feel even better if you told him how it makes you feel.
Drop him, ghost him, avoid him.
How to find friends: If you are in school, join the drama club even for backstage help. Because you are all working toward a series of short-term, exciting goals, bonding is easy. Drama also has every type of student in it: popular, unpopular, and everything in between.