So ill start from the begging. When i was 11 my parents got divorced and after a few months of custody battles i went with my mom and we moved to a small town there i was realy scared because kids in my old town used to be realy mean so i was like a string just waiting to rupture and i found it hard making friends but one day this guy who sat behind me was assighned to help me catch up since we moved in the half of the school year. So we were both anoyed at first but then it went out that we like anime and we got into talking after a while he introduced me to his friends. I had a voice in my head that kept telling me they will betray me and stuff like that so i didnt hang out much with them but the guy im gonna call him S always managed to pull me away from my bed. So when we hung out even though there were a lot of us he fucused only on me so everyone started saying that we found our own world with our own rules. We didnt mind and were learning from each other the voice started driffting away and i became more social. Well and at the end of the year i had to move again so we promised to stay in touch and that we will visit each other. In the winter of the year i moved again i made friends but close to New Years Eve i got a call from a friends mom from my first town that he commited suic*** i shattered and wanted to be with him so one day when i had enough i went onto a roof of my apartment and as i was thinking my last thoughts i got a text from S. He wanted to know if we are still best friends so i realized i cant just do the same and leave someone that cares abaut me. So that sparked a light in me and also love i tried to get closer i tried telling him but the weight of our friendship ending was too much in the time i said to myself ill finaly tell him he told me he found a girlfriend and thats basicaly this moment so AITAH i still wanna confess so keep your eyes peeled for updates.
Ps:sorry for any grammar issues English isnt my first language
Please post this on a teen or confession sub, this is not the place for it. YTA.
Sorry im new to reddit i just know this server from a couple of friends
Have you learned about periods, commas, capitalization the beginning of a sentence? Really, if you must use talk to text, please go back and read what you said AND fix it before you post it. That’s the only way I know to help you. Run on sentences are a pain to read.
They said English isn’t their first language and are dealing with a friend’s death and their own suicidal thoughts, but I’m sure they are terribly sorry about the run on sentences and the pain they caused.
Come on dude find some fucking empathy
You are right. I apologize. It was just so triggering. I’ll do better. 💕
Playing fast and loose with triggering as well honestly. It’s a pet peeve you aren’t triggered, unless you had some past trauma from a run on sentence, in which case I’m sorry for being so insensitive to your struggle
Not a problem. Sometimes I need someone to keep me in check. I have a lot of life experience and everyone hasn’t been there. I will always take constructive criticism. I’m 70+. We can always learn to do better.
Girl you’re fine, don’t apologize to some internet stranger scolding you😂
NTA. Feelings aren’t something you choose, and having feelings for someone who’s been that important to you makes complete sense. You haven’t acted on it in a way that hurts anyone. That text from S pulling you back when you were on that roof matters more than any of this. I’m glad you’re still here.
Is he only valuable to you if you have him all to yourself? Why can’t you be friends with his girlfriend too? One of my best friend’s girlfriends is now one of my closest friends as well.
Or when you say it sparked love, do you mean to say you want a romantic relationship with him?
I wouldn’t say your jealousy is the issue here, I think it’s that you become over-invested in a single friendship, it’s too intense and then you get your heart broken.
Your friend killing himself is awful and I’m sorry you went through that, but doing the same as him won’t bring you back together and I doubt he would want that for you.
Rekindle this friendship, and try and find new people, don’t invest it all in one person
NTA
He and her are long distance so i never met her and i think saying sparkle of love is kinda obvious i wrote that i wanted to confess to him.
what’s the conflict here? You feel your feelings? Has anyone indicated that you’d be an AH? I really dont think this belongs here.