I (20F) share a double room in a hostel with my roommate (19F). She got this room through my father’s reference. Our families know each other. We’ve lived together for months but don’t talk at all. From day one, she made her own friends and mostly stays in their rooms. On the other hand, I don’t have any friends in hostel. We were polite initially but not close and didn’t interact beyond basic coexistence. After first 3 4 months, we stopped talking completely.
On my birthday earlier, she didn’t wish me (she didn’t know it was my birthday and had gone back home) I had posted my bday pictures on story and she didn’t wish a belated birthday then either. This did make me feel bad ngl. I blame my dad a lot for telling her family about my PG and letting her be my roommate
It’s her birthday today. Her friends came into our room late at night while she was in some other friend’s room, decorated it and were very loud. I’m an introvert and felt extremely awkward since I don’t know her friends and don’t have a bond with my roommate. I didn’t feel comfortable joining in or wishing her in front of a room full of people I don’t talk to.
So instead, I quietly went to the terrace and spent time on a call with my family. I came back later but her friends were still there. When I came back to my room later, her friends went away after a couple of minutes. I planned to wish her later privately once things calmed down, but I haven’t yet. We are not even on talking terms and I’m just not able to gather the courage to wish her. It is so fucking awkward for me. I’m constantly feeling weird about not wishing her either and feeling like I’m a bad person. But I do think I just removed myself from an uncomfortable situation. AITK for not wishing her and stepping away from the celebration?
P.S.-This girl is also rude in a way. When I used to see her standing in the corridors or somewhere with her friends, she would act like I’m a fucking stranger in front of her friends. Like one does pass a smile when you see someone you know. She wouldn’t at all.