(I’m 21)
We were messing around dating then she got pregnant got an apartment moved me in there (I have my own apartment), it felt kinda forced with the her being pregnant, but I drove an hour and back to work everyday wouldn’t get home until 3-6am in the morning and her daughter would come in and I would barely get any sleep, and she would have a problem with me wanting to sleep more and would start doing things to provoke me, overall I wasn’t happy with my time there, I was off work for injury when I moved in there initally and my workers comp checks weren’t a lot she was saying I could watch the kid and it would be fine and she could pay the bills but I knew that was unrealistic, anyways she kept gettin sick at work (pregnant throwing up) and then they demoted her because she had to keep coming home so all the pressure was on me and I was on injury, she treated me like shit for a while abused me verbally and mentally any chance she had got it seemed like. And at this time I was just tryna do my best, when I went back to work as I said earlier I was coming home at about 4-6 in the morning every night, and would get no sleep and bitched at when I was the one paying for everything out of my pocket when I had my own rent to pay and other things I have to take care of, only reason I did it is because I cared, it took a while but I sat her down multiple times and genuinely told her that I couldn’t do it then she started to change a little, after some time I advised we broke the lease because of financial reasons, realistically if both of our credit isn’t that good and im going to be in debt it wouldn’t be good for anyone. but I told her that I didn’t want to live with her at a certain point and why and she’s still sending me houses and shit, I don’t want it to be a repeat of before, I told her we’d basically be bringing another baby into the same situation and I don’t want my son to see me coming home stressed ash everyday and I don’t want to deal with her kid I just don’t feel a connection as I was put through hell the first time, she can go back to work after she gives birth but I still love n care about her yk, im just at a point where I don’t really care and I don’t want to be an asshole but I don’t want to put myself in a permanent situation where I know I would be an asshole, im currently back in my own apartment now catching back up, and she did get better with her dealing with me but I still am not fond of the idea nor situation