AITAH for blocking my friend who claimed I made her relapse

so basically I had a friend group consisting of four people. me, my friend who we‘ll call Lucy, my friend who we’ll call Emma, and my friend who we’ll call Lily. we all met through a group that we go to and Emma and Lily were already friends when we met.

we all started hanging out and things were going great until Emma decided to freak out on me the night before my birthday and call me horrible things. Emma quit the group we go to and Lily tried me and Lucy to become close with Emma again, which we were against.

me and lucy naturally became a lot closer and things seemed to be going well until the leaders of the group started to treat me and Lucy badly, like they had been told some lies. things escalated when Lily started to acuse me and Lucy of treating her badly and replacing her, which we explained we weren’t trying to do. in all honesty Lily handled things awfully and really broke our trust, so we didn’t want to be close with her.

lots more happened, but today me and Lucy saw a post she made about us saying;

“Genuinely fuck you both. I don’t know if your reading this but you guys are both so immature like talking about how you went trick or treating without me after telling me that you weren’t going at all and uninviting me leaving me with NO ONE to go with like you two were genuinely the only real friends I had and then you blamed the break up on me? Like you guys are *\*age* and *\*age* like holy fucking shit that’s immature as hell like get a grip you literally made me relapse because i thought i wasn’t good enough like I’m sorry but thats so screwed up and also you made fun of something that i struggled with for over a year knowing damn well I did it like "oh my god look at my cat scratches" and also your constantly talking about how tiny you are when you know damn well I struggle with body image like you screwed up my life I had 3 mental breakdowns over that and missed so much school and you till blame it on me and then at camp you act like nothing happened? And one of you didn’t make any effort to talk to me and I literally had to go to my bed and talk to emma while you guys bragged about how you hung out without me like holy crap get a grip you literally made a *age* year old girls life living hell and i thought that we were all just drifting apart but it turns out that you guys were just texting and hanging out without guys were just texting and hanging out without me like AT LEAST TELL ME FOR GOD SAKE LIKE I GENUINELY HATE YOU GUYS YOU RUINED MY LIFE AND MADE ME RELAPSE MULTIPLE TIMES AND I EVEN ACKNOWLEDGED THE THINGS THAT I DID WRONG AND YOU DIDN’T APOLOGIZE ONCE.”

I was genuinely so confused when she posted this. For one thing, she has a TON of friends who she’s always talked about and she never made us seem like her main friends until me and Lucy became closer. I’ve never body shamed her ever, and she used to me mean to me for my looks. I’ve struggled with an ED in the past and I also like never wear clothes that show off my figure. Emma called me a body shamer too when she stopped being friends with me, even though they know I’ve struggled with my own body issues and that I have a chronic illness that makes eating hard. Both of them are very bad over eaters and they have definitely projected their issues onto me. they used to bully me pretty badly last year to the point where I was really depressed and stopped dressing in my style. then they tried to make me seem like the horrible person when I’m the first one to hype someone up.

The self harm stuff was also so weird. I saw she had some scratches on her arms a year ago, and I sent her a nice message telling her I was there for her if she needed to talk. The “cat scratches” thing was that my kitten beats the shit out of me and it looks so much like self harm that we were joking about it lightly. she even said to use that she never really self harmed badly and that she had fully stopped, so her claiming that I caused some big relapse is a bit of an exaggeration. I genuinely have no clue how I would have ruined her life, as she has a new reason her life is ruined every time you talk to her.

Emma is also racist AND homophobic and has said the N word as well as other racist things. both her and Lily used to pick on me about being gay when I was still closeted and then denied the fact I’m a lesbian once I came out. Emma said I’m the only gay person she likes and lily herself said that Emma had told her that she and Lily are the only normal ones and that she doesn’t like me and Lucy because we’re queer.

I genuinely have no clue what to do. I’m not going to reach out to her as I have her blocked and I know that’s exactly what she wants, but Im nervous about the leaders. emma and lily have really made themselves into the victims and it’s clearly getting to the leaders. I’ve sent them a long email explaining everything but I just worry that it’s going to affect how they see me.

also if this all comes off as super immature, I know. It’s pretty annoying to me too and honestly if it weren’t for my relationship with the leaders being at stake i wouldn’t be feeding into any of this drama. I’m in high school and this is genuinely all so juvenile. For reference about our ages, cause I removed them from lilys post. She’s two years younger than me, but she acts like she’s three or four years younger.

I feel like Im justified in blocking both Emma and Lily, but them and the leaders are making it seem like I’m doing something awful. My email was really good, but I’m worried that won’t be enough and that she’ll spin it so it’s “alternative high schooler bullies younger chubby girl” which is what she seems to be doing. I genuinely want to know if I was a dick for blocking her.