First I want to say thank you to the people who have validated me in my old posts, you really did help.
I, 15F live with my mother (38), my step dad (46), and my brother (16).
I’m big, I’m 5’3 and weigh 170-180 so I can see why she talks about it a lot, but she often makes comments on my weight, how much I eat, and how little I eat. by now I’ve gotten used to her comments and remarks about me, it’s just how she it and normally I’m good at ignoring them but thanksgiving was a whole dumpster fire. I have an eating disorder (ARFIDS) and was diagnosed a year or two ago. I’m picky, I love a lot of foods but can’t stand the textures of them when put together, cooked, etc. I give her a lot of trouble.
The day before thanksgiving she had a bag of pecans for sweet potato casserole that I guess was full, but when she went to grab it it wasn’t. She yelled at me and my brother in the car, mainly me because the weekend before I got grounded for 2 days for using the rest of the coffee creamer. Now maybe I misheard her, I don’t think she’s say this, but as I was crying she said ‘you guys want to steal my food so much, I hope you fucking choke on it so you never have to see me again since I starve you guys.’ I tried to explain to her that she doesn’t starve us, but I didn’t take the pecans. She said ‘oh right, \*you\* didn’t take them? That’s hard to believe since you eat everything.’ For some reason that got to me, and I snapped back ‘Okay well I could say the same, how do we know you didn’t eat them?’
obviously I got grounded. I’m still grounded, I’m on a phone I bought that she can’t take. Since then, she’s been crying and her and my step dad won’t even look at me. I feel horrible, the reason my mom is big is because she had kids, that’s what childbirth does to a woman’s body, and even my brother says I should have just sat down and shut up.
I love my mom and feel horrible, but my therapist said my mom was in the wrong and I reacted as ‘anyone who has to deal with that would’. I don’t know what she means by that, but i feel like ITAH.