I [23M] (at the time I was 18M) had a friend [23M] (at the time he was also 18M) in high school. I’ll call him Peter. We were very close, nobody else in school really liked us so we stuck together most of the time. Me and Peter didn’t speak much, but we really didn’t have to. We were inseparable.
We did a lot of stuff together. I’m not sure I’d like to admit everything we did, It kind of blurred the lines between platonic and not platonic. We went to prom together (as friends), and I had a good time. A few nights later though, I found out he’d been the one responsible for a rumor spreading about us. I don’t wanna get into it. He tried to explain, but I didn’t believe him. There was a lot of evidence and I was completely heartbroken. He said a lot of things to me that night that I still think about. I cut him off completely and we haven’t spoken since.
It’s been years now, and since then we haven’t spoken. He’s been trying to get back in my life. I can’t deny that I’ve been thinking a lot about him since. I’ve been trying my best to move on, but it’s hard. Part of me still wants to be with him, but I can’t really bring myself to forgive what he said. He still hasn’t apologized for any of it.
The other day we saw each other again in a public park. Honestly, he wasn’t even doing anything wrong, but recently I’ve had this feeling that I’ve been watched. I know it’s him. He’s been around too often for it to not be him watching me. I said a lot of things to him that I sort of regret. I remember his face when I said them. I feel a little bad, but at the same time, he’s been watching me wherever I go and I still haven’t gotten any closure from what happened years ago. AITA?