This is sort of a throw away, but here’s the context:
I, 18F, broke up with my old friends because of emotional immaturity.
Much of the drama was because of miscommunication and my bad attitude when I didn’t like someone.
I have previous experience with having unhealthy emotional responses because of things in my past, and I don’t want it to continue to affect me. (I will be going to therapy dw).
I started talking crap to one of my friends about another friend because she was being draining. I had asked for space before hand after Halloween, but she kept pushing. eventually, she went to the rest of our group and tried to get people on her side (including a guy friend whom wasn’t super friendly with her and I). in an “eye for an eye” situation, she started talking bad about me as well. this wasn’t just small bouts of annoyance, this was full paragraphs of how I was a narcissist like such and such’s mom, and that I was an emotional manipulator and immature “middleschooler”.
i know I am early in my adulthood, and quite literally just left the nest. I don’t have it all figured out and I need to find my own identity. I only know about the words said because the girl in question who I was upset with had shown me during a talking session.
i was livid with her, and ended the friendship in a sort of “it’s best for you and the group” sort of way (no foul language, mostly tears, IK teenagers we’re dramatic). On the way to my dorm, two friends tried to talk to me, but I closed the door in their faces because it was directly after the initial talk about not being friends.
sadly, I lived with one of the said friends. she ignored me (understandable, but we came to college together, being friends since middle school) so I was hurt. I have since moved dorms.
I know I can be mean and not read the room well unless someone tells me, but AITA?