17f
My friends asked me to go on a shopping spree with them also to go to the cinemas later. You know your typical kinda average day out with your girlfriends.
I called my closer friend and told her straight up that I just didn’t want to go. I’m pretty slumped 24/7 and struggle to see any enjoyment in “going out”. My other friends couldn’t fathom me just “not wanting to go” but that’s my truth and I ended up making an excuse.
Another example is yesterday when my friends went ice skating and I watched instead of participating because I was just so TIRED. I don’t find anything fun and I fear I’ve become boring and I may as well do everybody a favour and stay home .
I hate feeling stuck and overstimulated at a location far away from or even just being around others.
My day to day life is studying and then worrying about my studies incase anybody cares.
I hate to mention my mother but she has breast cancer and used to get admitted into hospital.
She would tell me im “not like other girls” as in I shouldn’t hang out with my friends so much because I need to help out at home with cooking and cleaning ect.
So I guess you can say I feel a sense of guilt whenever I spend her money and have fun. Especially since she doesn’t have much as she doesn’t work.
Anyways my friend is mad and I cannot give a real reason.
They Genuinly think I’m purposely excluding myself.
Have you been examined for depression? Thats honestly what it sounds like.
Yes about 4 months ago.
I didn’t get any real treatment for it though, my parents found out I was seeing a doctor behind their back and got suspicious and struck me off the register.
What do you mean, struck you off the register?
You sound exactly like I was when I had PND , you need to go back to your doctor.
I’m not sure how it works outside of the uk but because I’m under 18 my parents can remove me off the register from a specific practice and register me with their preferred one
Have they actually re-registered you with a doctor, or just left you without any medical/support resources?
If so, is there an adult you can trust to talk about your parents and the way they treat you, because this is not okay.
Yes I’m with their dr now
Agreed. Definitely sounds like she could be dealing with depression or at least something mental health related and the guilt tripping from her mother to be less social and take on more household responsibilities doesn’t help either.