So in June, I was accepted into Howard (my dream school) but couldn’t commit because they had that whole finance scandal going on. They took my scholarship without telling me, didn’t want to give me any more aid, and I didn’t want to put my dad through the tuition cost. My mom never wanted me to go to begin with.
So now I’m at a university in my home state, and I honestly want to be somewhere else. It’s nice here, but I feel like I’m limiting myself and I can achieve more. So I want to use this uni as a launching pad (community college style) to get in somewhere better and receive lots of financial aid. But now I’m kind of chained to this school…
First, my sister and brother and law moved to my uni’s city so my sister could be here for me if I need anything. The thought excited me and I’ve liked getting to see her more. However, my brother applied to this school ONLY and because we’ll both be going here, our dad wants to make us live in a house together when he gets here to save money. That means I’ll be responsible for him and cleaning everything, I’ll never get sleep because he games all night, always getting sick because he’s unhygienic and it’s too much. He didn’t even want to go to uni, but our parents made him and he doesn’t want to be alone. I honestly think he’s going to flunk. He’s VERY irresponsible and college has too much freedom for him to handle, and he chose one of the hardest majors available.
I also just found out that my little sister (who I never lived with growing up, and doesn’t ever get out of her house) wants to come to this uni too. Even though she’s very smart and enterprising. Now I have a second sibling coming here only to be with me. I don’t want her to think I’m trying to abandon her by getting out of here because that’s all she’s ever experienced in her life but omg.
Not to mention my older sister convinced our crazy mom to move down here since she’ll “have nothing else” back at home. I’m not even going to get into that.
But the way everyone is basing their futures off me is really bothering me. I haven’t even figured out my own future. I want to clarify that everyone knew I didn’t want to go to this university since before I even got accepted (it was my safety school).
I don’t know what to do. I feel selfish, but I also kinda feel like this shouldn’t be my problem. The whole situation is honestly suffocating. WIBTA for transferring?