Hello! I am F17 have been together with my boyfriend M18 for over a year now and we recently had dinner at a restaurant with his dad’s side of the family for my birthday. For some context when i get really upset or insecure i kinda shut down. I don’t show any emotion and barely respond while a hundred things are going on in my head and I overthink a lot. Me and my boyfriend had agreed and made a deal for us both to quit vaping/smoking and he had a lot of stress these last few weeks due to work and school so i was okay with him smoking WHEN he had stress. During dinner he kept getting up with his stepbrothers and cousins go to outside to smoke which upset me because this is not what we talked about. They probably went outside more than 7 times and i just sat there alone talking to the adults akwardly every time for at least 15 minutes. I told myself it was fine and let go of it because i didnt wanna be dramatic or cause a scene. Everything else was amazing until his stepbrother just randomly shows my bf pictures of some hot blonde girls in dresses (im brunette) and i kinda feel my stomach drop. I dont even compare to those women in the pics and luckily my bf says hes not into that stuff and only likes me which im grateful for but i get insecure real fast its not something i can help. After that i shut down and didnt say anything for the rest of the dinner i even went to the bathroom one time and cried. It just seemed so disrespectful to show your stepbrother pictures of half naked women while his girlfriend in right next to him even if i wasn’t he shouldn’t do that. I just sat quietly and finished the food and waited until we went home. Later that night my bf said i couldve looked happier we went back and forth a bit but made up. So AITA?
I’m confused. you say you are M then your bf is M. then later you say your female.