AITA if I drop out of my friends wedding as her maid of honor due to my mental health declining?

Hello everyone I hope you are all doing well. (F22)

I honestly just don’t know who to talk to about this and really need some advice on this situation. So for the first time ever I have decided to come to ya’ll!

So a close friend(M29) of my husband and I got engaged about a year and a half ago give or take. My husband was asked to be a groomsman and I was asked to be his fiancés (F25) MOH, which I really wasn’t expecting, but regardless I felt honored and was excited. Within that year and a half though sadly a lot of stuff happened in my life that has really affected me and has caused my mental health to deteriorate severely. Our friends do know that I haven’t been in the best place recently, but not to the extent of it since I really just don’t feel comfortable letting others fully know absolutely everything going on in my life. I’m the kind of person that would rather just smile and listen to your problems than dump mine on you tbh. (ik it sounds dumb but im trying to work on it honestly!!)

I’ve really been battling with myself if I should drop out of the wedding party, and not cause I feel like I would regret it but because I don’t want to cause any form of drama at all honestly since I know she tends to get very upset and opinionated if stuff doesn’t happen to go her way and on top of that my husband is super close with our friend and also a groomsman. Which I am 100% okay with him continuing to be, which is why he also has no idea what I should do and he just sucks with advice in general, but regardless of what I do decide to do he is going to back me up all the way.

Ik all of this is probably a bit hard to understand and prob sounds like rambling which I am genuinely sorry if it does, but any type of advice is appreciated right now.

I hope you are all having a good day or night so far though.

EDIT: I did forget to put some pretty important info so I’m just going to put it here.

\- First thing is the wedding is later this year like towards the very end of it.

\- Second is what it has been causing me. It’s really just been causing me a lot of pressure and guilt to be all on me in a way because as the MOH she’s expecting me to do all of the correct showers and also a big trip and just be there for everything, which traditionally is what is supposed to happen I’m told, but I haven’t even been showing up for myself at all.