Before starting i need to specify that the ages are not the real one,but without an age i couldn’t make the post.
Small context
In the last months my male bestfriend made me meet his new group of friends,we’re the only two male and i’m the only single one,so obliviosly agree to hang out with a group of single girls,everything was working well and at some point i started to see them as genuinely friend that i care about,however my bestfriend and her girlfriend told me that it would be cool if me and viola (my “close friend”) would start to date,and do double dates together, I didn’t think it was possible, also because at the beginning I tried but she only gave me negative signals, however they both showed me a series of messages where she says that she likes me, and that if on Saturday night I tried to kiss her,she would have done the same without thinking twice.
now the important part begins (sorry for my grammar but english isn’t my first language)
Now the big deal starts,saturnday night we all hangout where all of my other friend and pretty much all of the cool people of my city hangout,unfortunately my best friend wanted to buy some weed (i think?) from a friend (i don’t smoke and i don’t approve but i’m nobody to judge) however he choose to bring her with him,i waited for 2 hours.
I waited with other friends and together we bought some beers,2 hour later and 3 beers after,they still were with that “weed” guy,so i was kinda disappointed in my friend,so after another 3 beers i was completly drunk,other friends helped me,but then then viola and the others cameback and we talked a lil about the fact that i needed a passage home.
then a lot of things happen,while i was away from them and me and another friend started a fight and some drunk shit.
Some time later i was with two other girl that i know and i was crying because i didn’t had my chance with viola,then i started saying that it was all my best friend’s fault so i stopped answering at the phone and i got home with other friends,however then i finally called back and he started saying how i was a bastard and the fact that him and viola searched me for like 1 hour before finally leaving to leave viola at his house and warn my family (however i was at home with them and i was sleeping),he told me that viola wanted to call the police and if i remember correctly she even cried.
Now she’s angry,really angry,we haven’t talked in like two days,because she didn’t write me and because i was to busy with other things.
tomorrow it’s her birthday,and i don’t know what i should do,if i go i fear that i might ruin her birthday just because i’m her, but if i don’t go she will probably hate me even more,the truth is that i didn’t write her first because i’m a coward and i just don’t know how to talk to her about it,i already passed a day,so she will also blame me for taking too much time,i don’t even know how to start the conversation and then apologize.
You man up. Just buy her a card and present then go to see her. Tell her you are so sorry you were such a dick and you promise to do better. Getting that drunk is on you. No one made you drink so much. Don’t blame others for your failings, please. That is part of being an adult. I am not saying Viola will forgive you because seeing a guy you fancy behave like a fool is a turn off, but you will have set things a bit straighter with your friends.
I just finished talking to my friend,he showed me and told me that she want to forgive me and probably go forward,the problem is that she don’t know if she want me at her birthday or not,the real problem however is that she told everything to her big sister and she kinda hate me,and she don’t want me at the party tomorrow,if viola want i would still be able to go,however thing could get really awkward and i don’t want to ruin her birthday.
I told my bestfriend that i care about his opinion more than the one of random girl that i haven’t even known for half a year,and that if she hates me then it would just be a bit awkward when she’s around,but that i overall don’t care about her,i also told him that she knew since the first day that we meet that sometimes i can’t handle alcohol (i’m not that much of a drinker,i drink like once a month and after yesterday i had enough),and he agreed on that.
The problem is that i lied about the fact that i don’t care about her,i care about her,at the start i hesitated at the option of dating with her because i genuinely like our relationship even as friends.