I am 26 years old(M) and these thoughts constantly enter my mind. I have good days and bad days like everyone, but the whole of my life is what gets to me instead of one or two particular days. I regret nearly my entire life and have very few things going for me. My dating life is a joke, I have no friends, I work a shit job with shit pay. MY own brothers don’t talk to me and would all rather hang with each other then me.
I have become so lonely. The few relationships I have gotten into I just always end up self sabotaging them. Every day feels like a chore. I eat barely one meal a day because eating is just to difficulty for me at this point. All this while continuing to get older and losing my youth while thinking that it is impossible that I will ever change these things.
Dance,no joke,music and dance….try it.
Move the way your body wants to move… Get outside, see the sunrise, see the sunset, be cold, feel the sun, walk barefoot, eat a new food,
And get counseling, and a psychiatrist, tomorrow! I mean it, and if they say take SSRI’s, take them, let those second guessers, second guess. You are too important for their second guessing.
No one wants you dead.
Find a therapist, bro. Reddit wont give you the answers you seek.
Psychiatrist*
Therapist is a good idea too – but acutely suicidal people need a higher level of care
A psychiatrist just prescribes medication. There’s no way to know if medication will work right off the bat. You need to go to therapist and IOP. You’ll have individual therapy/group therapies for parts of the day.
OP, I want you to look at these couple posts above me. Reddit can’t even agree on exactly what course of action to take. But also keep this in mind, we’re all suggesting professional help. Personally, if you’re thinking about actually doing it, I might would walk into a hospital and tell them straight up, and start from there.
Whatever course you take, life is hard. It CAN be beautiful. The world is undoubtedly better with you in it, you just haven’t found your place yet. A lot of us have been in similar situations. I won’t speak for anyone else, but I’m pulling for you. Hard. I’m sure there are far more people in your corner than you realize.
It’s time for a professional. There is nothing wrong with reaching out, you’re doing it here even, that shows you can do it, you have the strength needed to fix this and live a happy life. It ain’t over, you ain’t hear no bell yet.
However we don’t have the resources to genuinely help you shape your life in a better way. A counselor or therapist is your next step.
You’re still young. It’s a marathon my dude. Put yourself out there, seek help, keep pushing.
My advice is to talk to a mental health professional.
Despite it being practical…not everyone can afford it.
Exercise, therapy, and anti-depressants
Give yourself some grace and some credit for not following through with it. Beyond that you need better support and answers than you can find here.
Don’t kill your self and eventually it goes away.
As the other dude said, DANCE BUDDY DANCE
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. First and most importantly you need to speak with a mental health professional. Don’t be afraid or ashamed to get on meds. You can literally do it by telemed now.
Echoing many other posts here….get outside and get active. Listen to upbeat music. Get a hobby that you enjoy. Wishing you the best!