I’m currently 28 I’ve been dealing with depression for over a decade, the thing is it’s never been constant throughout.
I have depressive months, I get through it and then I get healthier, happier and productive and then boom, it all goes to shit and I’m back in a hole, depressed, unhealthy, unproductive and the cycle repeats. I’m so fucking scared man like is this what life is going to be for me forever?
Will i die having never stayed consistently happy healthy and productive? Will it always be a cycle? It’s to the point where i even get scared when life is going good for me because the entire time it’s like a countdown in my mind till when it all goes to shit again.
It’s getting to the point too where even tho I know I will end up getting happy healthy and productive again(somewhere it always happens) now I feel like what will be the point anyways since eventually i will be back to this hole again.
Very relatable and this is so hard to cope than people imagine, you know it’s coming that realization itself is devastating
Stop doomscrolling, playing video games(or give yourself a hard limit), and start lifting. You are in a cycle because your habits are cyclic.
nobody is consistently happy all the time.
See a doctor man. See a doctor. Get professional help. Either medication, counseling or both.
It never truly goes away. I find that regular exercise and a good diet helps. You also need to recognise the moments where you need to ask for help before you spiral.
Just want to pop in here and say I used to deal with that, and that through an odd evening many years ago, I encountered psilocybin, and well, depression no more. I’m not the type to do drugs, and I had previously heard some places in some states have been using it for that. Back then, with those feeling, I thought what the hell. I can’t say that’s the result for everyone, but should be researched and studied more. I have no idea what your lifestyle is like, and recommend safety above all, but maybe…just maybe, you’ll have luck too. It changed my life.
May I ask where you get it from? I’m in PA and would like to explore this option.
It happened to me for years. Therapy really helped. Med. Talk. Exercise. Those are working for me.
I’m 43 and have had the same issue throughout my life. My problem now is that my current “slump” has been going on for a couple years now instead of just the normal couple of months that you described.
My advice to you is to get help, and don’t wait.
This is how I am. I was born that way and in high-school they sent me to like half a dozen specialists who all diagnosed me with major persistent depression disorder. Im one of them hardcore types so I disregarded all of em and said im fine I just smoke too much weed and thats why I got no motivation and I dont care. As I got older it became painfully obvious I suffered from depression and in my late 30s I started to get terrified because I actually began to want to die. This was also caused by a cocaine addiction cycle which originated from the depression as a sort of relief due to lack of motivation.
My advice is get plenty of sunlight on a daily basis. Sunlight and nature kills off depression better than anything else you have at your disposal. And get a therapist and stay away from stimulant drugs as someone with clinical depression is very susceptible to addiction. Especially cocaine and meth. Withdrawal symptoms from stimulant drugs are anhedonia which is a death wish for someone who already suffers from depression and possible anhedonia to begin with.
Sunlight, exercise, and lisenced professional care.
I’m the same way and wonder the same thing. Back in the hole, no self care, no leaving the house, poor nutrition, breaking good habits.
I’m on 5mg of Lexapro. I just get so tired. I feel like I need to rest. But I know it’s a terrible cycle. Idk what the answer is.
I go through similar cycles. I have no grand solution, but can offer some of my own observations.
Don’t ignore the physical or the practical. For me, anxiety causes loss of appetite and insomnia. They both get pretty bad, and it catalyzes the depression. Do your best to get enough sleep/food/water.
Find ways to soothe your nervous system, something simple. My preferred methods are music or meditation. Exercise is good for this too.
Remember that your mind knows exactly what to say to convince you of something. The negative thoughts will always seem logical and important, in the moment, but they aren’t really. They are a neurotic feedback-loop.
Be patient and compassionate towards yourself. This part is extremely vital. Its very hard to logic your way out of a depressive spiral, let compassion be your guiding star.
Good luck, friend.
Talk to a pro man, might be a big step but eventually it will be a much better explanation than you ever find here.. If this is happening without the cause of external reasons like work or a relationship, you might have some underlying thinking habits causing it. I’m not a doctor, but reading how you explain the cycles and how they are happening in periods it almost seems like you describe bipolarity.
Been there, I get myself moving. I go for walks or explore. It helps alleviate a good amount of it for me. Especially during the winter months. I still go for walks even in the cold.